I was encouraged to read this excerpt from St. Francis de Sales…there is hope!
The soul which rises from out of sin to a devout life has been compared to the dawn, which does not banish darkness suddenly, but by degrees. The slow cure is always the surest, and spiritual maladies, like those of the body, while they are apt to come on horseback and express, tend to depart slowly and on foot.
So we must be brave and patient in this undertaking. It is sad to see souls grow disheartened because they find themselves still subject to imperfection after having made some attempt to leading a devout life, or to see them give up in despair and fall back. On the other hand, those who, through the opposite temptation, imagine themselves purified from all imperfection at the very outset, and who count themselves as full grown almost before they are born, are in worse danger. Be sure that these are in great danger of relapse through having left their physician too soon.